Long distance relationship

Have you ever experienced to be in a long distance relationship? As for me, Yes. I’ve been in that kind of relationship twice. The first one was way back in High School. I met this guy on my cousin’s debut. I was young then, I didn’t really know the true meaning of having a relationship. I just want to experience the feeling of having a boyfriend. That’s it! The relationship lasted for a year and 3 months. I survived because of the letter we usually send to each other every two weeks and the long phone calls we had every weekend. But it came to a point that I am no longer happy in that relationship. I broke up with him and I could say that it didn’t hurt me much. I thought that’s how relationship works, when you’re fed up which other you just broke up! And I also thought that it’s the last long distance relationship I would have. But unfortunately, I was wrong. During my last year as a college student, I met this guy who is studying from one of the universities near my school. He was also a friend of a friend. We were introduced to each other, we exchange numbers and we became friends. It went on like that for a couple of months, until we fell in love with each other. I can say that I really love him for whenever I am with him, it just feels like I don’t need anything else. We were very happy at that time not knowing that school is about to end. I thought he would stay here in the city so we could both look for a job. Unfortunately, that did not happen. He has to go back to his hometown because his dad is sick that’s why he needs to take care of him. And he also decided that he will look for a job there. For the very first time, I felt alone, scared and I even want to shout at the top of my lungs. I really felt bad, or should I say it feels like hell! But there is nothing we could do we just have to accept that what will happen is a long distance relationship. We love each other and we were able to manage things. Our relationship survived through phone calls, text messages we send to each other everyday and at least we he was able to find time to visit me here. As time goes by, there are some things we discovered about each other that we though didn’t exist. We started to fight, but we were able to patch things up before the day ends. We were like that for 2 years and 4 months. The day came when I felt that everything was totally different. It seems like I don’t know him anymore. I even felt that he lied to me many times. Women’s instinct as they call it! I forgive him for all the wrong things he has done to me and I could even claim that I was the one who made the possible to save our relationship. But sad to say, nothing happened. After nearly 3 years, still we broke up. I’ve done my part. I’m already tired of doing things that could make the relationship work and I have to love myself again. I, guess I’m better off alone.